mandala in organic cotton skein...how wonderful!

Here is now 2017.

see that sunshine
feel that breeze


there will be times when listening to the radio one could swear that the story told was about oneself.
and, with it, comes the memories of yesteryear.

they said that soulmates will be tied forever.
the knot will never sever.
perhaps, it is true.

where are you now my soulmate?
the fields of barley are now ripe in golden shower.

a walk in the fields would be lovely.

indeed.

ahh..! such wishful thoughts.
hinder will it be for the walk to be.

indeed.

Ahh...love is strange

Ahh...love is so strange indeed... Why oh why. I cannot understand the mysteries anymore.. Why be in love the way of the 21st century? It is burdensome to your shoulders to carry. But still you carry on to shoulder it.  Perhaps, the sun is still shining, the moon will always be bright, every night and the wind will keep on blowing, that is why. And I suppose, the songs keep on playing.  That's why....persistent memories.

The date

I was wrong so many times till this point and I already know it
that today almost certainly
I am wrong on your behalf but one more time
what can change in my life
accept this strange date
was madness
I am sad between the people
that go by me
but the nostalgia to see you again
is more powerful than crying
this sun lights up on my face
a sign of hope
I am waiting when suddenly
I will see you appear from affar
Love, hurry up, I can't resist...
if you don't arrive I don't exist
I don't exist,I don't exist...
the weather has changed and it rains
but I keep on waiting
I don't care what the world thinks of me
I don't want to go away
I look inside me and I ask
but I don't hear anything
I am only a left-over of hope
lost between the people
Love it's already late and I don't resist
if you don't arrive I don't exist
I don't exist, I don't exist
lights, cars, shop-windows, roads/streets
everything gets mixed up in my mind
my shadow is tired to follow me
the day dies slowly
There is nothing else left than going back home
to my sad life
this life that I wanted to give to you
you have crumbled her between your fingers
Love, excuse me but I can't resist
now forever I don't exist
I don't exist, I don't exist...

~~ enta omri 

When I think of you, I think of you fondly.

Of course, I think of you

When I think of you,

I think of you fondly.

Always

Of course, I love you

Perhaps, you were my first true love

True and pure

Of course, I do call out your name

Whenever my mind wander

It wander towards you

Every time

Every moment

When I think of you,

I see the clouds

I see the sky

I see rainbows

I see the stars and the moon

 

I think of you and I think of you

fondly.

Tammat

Akhirnya, selesai sudah satu episod.

Cukup sampai disini sayang
Relakan perpisahan ini
Walau berat dihati dan berat perasaan
Tempuh dengan ketabahan

Bukan kita tak saling cinta
Bukan kita tak saling sayang
Bersenang dan berduka
Bertemu dan berpisah
Itu kehendakNya jua
Cukup sampai disini sayang

Telah ku tempuh jalan tengah
Begitulah akhirnya
Telah ku selami laut yang dalam
Begitulah akhirnya



Bukan kita tak saling cinta
Bukan kita tak saling sayang
Bersenang dan berduka
Bertemu dan berpisah
Itu kehendakNya jua
Cukup sampai disini sayang

Be a Bear in Winter.

When all else fails, give up and go to the cave!  

When the dark clouds persistently  hover upon you and your spouse, go hibernate in a nice cosy cave somewhere. A good long sleep is best medicine in times of trouble.  Then, wake up one day, resolve the issue, once and for all.  No point looking at the past.  The future is the focus.  Life is too short.  Why spend the precious time on something that only brings sorrow and despair.

Making the choice and making the decision is part of  being a decent human being.  Make the choice.  Make the decision. 

In the mean time, hibernate!

SoulMate

Hi Folks.  I wish you all clear blue skies and sunshine from morning till dusk.  


You know, life is a mystery.  This is trite fact already.  Because, everybody knows about this. I have been in a melancholic mood of some sort.  All because something cropped-up in my mind a short while ago.  It's this matter about soul mate.  Do you really fathom the phenomena of soulmate?  What is soulmate actually?  I am indeed absolutely curious about this phenomena.  So, I looked up the meaning of the word 'soulmate'.  And, I found,  as described in Urban Dictionary, that the meaning is:- 

 "A person with whom you have an immediate connection the moment you meet -- a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced before. As this connection develops over time, you experience a love so deep, strong and complex, that you begin to doubt that you have ever truly loved anyone prior. Your soulmate understands and connects with you in every way and on every level, which brings a sense of peace, calmness and happiness when you are around them. And when you are not around them, you are all that much more aware of the harshness of life, and how bonding with another person in this way is the most significant and satisfying thing you will experience in your lifetime. You are also all that much aware of the beauty in life, because you have been given a great gift and will always be thankful."

I found that this explanation summed up the holistic meaning of soulmate.  It is also described as a relationship of true love.  What does true mean here?  True as I understand it to mean is 'the real thing on the face of it clearly shows what's inside of something'.  The synonym of which is real - genuine - faithful - right - actual - loyal.  So, it is in actual a real -genuine-faithful-right-actual-loyal love! I am so taken aback with the revelation of the meaning of soulmate.  Indeed I am.  I declare, to have a soulmate is a blessing.  It is a gift from God.  

But, to my mind, there is a setback.  If you care to do a bit of reading about true love stories or watch some movies related to this phenomenon you can find that the soulmates will never stay together in a certain solid engagement.  They will be separated in the end.  It will never end in a happily ever after situation.  Soulmates will meet or stumble upon each other.  Get to know each other.  Discovered instantly that they attract each others’ attentions and get attracted completely solidly forgetting the rest of the world around them lost in the maze and labyrinth of true love bonding only to be separated from each other by a cruel incident [this is what happened most of the time] which halted the relationship and in the end they will be separated from each other as far away from each other as one can imagine like the separation between the sky and the earth.

Do you know that when they said soulmates are blessed; they are indeed blessed.  Because, this is a special gift to special people.  It cannot be chased.  It can only be found when the time and place are destined for that special people. 

How it ended? Through death. Through unforeseen circumstance. The result of separation is always sorrowfulness. Grieving yet unable to forget.
A blessing yet a curse too. 

Kasih = Love

I was wandering in the 'net jungle earlier and discovered this wonderful song.  Somehow, I felt that this number is dedicated to me.  I, particularly, loved this line :

"When you touch someone with your spirit, and in turn they touch your soul with their heart."

It was a long long time ago since one's heart was touched, so dearly.  How true these words are, "Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale."  Indeed, life is all about the affairs of the heart.  The realm of life is the memories of feelings.  Impossible to erase.

Whoever you are, it really pleases me to have this song for myself, this rainy night.
Mucho mucho gracias, mi amigo!

Apa Khabar Sayang

Detachment

"A precious one

The face I see every day every night

The thoughts of mine are with the precious one

I will keep thou, the precious one

In my secret box

The secret box I placed in a secret part

Of my heart

I locked the secret box

And threw the key away

That's how much I love thee, love of my life

Forever in my heart."

Destiny and Time...

I'm sharing with you people a love song, a sad love song about love not to become..

" Tidak ku tahu mengapakah sepinya melanda hatiku... dan bukannya kemahuanku, datangnya sendiri...Tidak kutahu mengapakah pilunya dipinggir hatiku, dan kucuba untuk mengusir tapi tak berdaya.


Lalu terbuka gerbang hatiku, menyambut rindu datang bertamu, aku gelisah.... kini rinduku menyebut cinta yang ditakdirkan dengan mu sayang..bukan pintaku atau mahumu....semuanya suratannya... tapi mengapakah kau sekadar waktu cinta yang datang cepat berlalu...pergimu sayang bersama cinta... tercalar pedih didalam dada...aku tersiksa.


Aku terdiam kaku menahan..bisanya menikam kalbuku separuh nyawa kupandang wajah didepan kaca...tutup kembali gerbang hatiku tidak bermaya langkah kaki ku disaat ini...


..tidak kusangka jadi begini terpisah jua kita akhirnya...aku sendiri tidak mengerti tidak mengerti ..sungguh pilu dihatiku untuk melepaskan mu demi kerana ku masih sayang sayang pada mu terbangkit resah didalam kalbu ... terhimpun rindu sayang tidak ku sangka terpisah jua kita berdua... aku sendiri tidak mengerti luka cinta ku..... "

It's a mystery indeed...to love so deep...not to become...tragic.

I'll post the link some day....

Today is a sad day.....

today is a sad day... sad day because of you

today i can only see you... i see you everywhere

i saw you in the clouds

you were there when i take that walk

today i will be sad...

i love you...

and, you love me...

or, was it, you love me first... then i love you...

 still, today is a sad day...


love found you and me

walk, you said... walk on, you said


has it ended?  that love who found?

love.... i found you...

love.... i lost you...


today is a sad day... i can't smile anymore...

my heart is raining... and, misty...

i will not dream..

today is a sad day.

Time In Space

If there is time
in space
meant to be
for the one
who builds
gardens of the souls
then there will be
a time to be
forever one
for
those
who loved.

The Sun is the Answer

The question as I can recall; since the day you posed it
The answer is only a simple one, my friend
Why must my body be covered with thorns you asked

Why not my dear ...
perhaps it is there so that not any Tom Dick or Harry can pluck or come near me
Or Jack of all trade; who would want these persons come by and disturb one's life uninvited
Or, to keep me from that plain Jane from simply sniffing on my elegant ripples of soft amber flush petals

But, it is not so that reason, dear friend
They are only my prickles my spines ... my precious adored accessoire
Just like your hands and your feet, accessories to your wonderfully structured body, dear friend

My spines prick and prick and prick
Bringing this material of organized substance, the realist me up towards the blue sky
towards my love, the Sun
They prick and prick and prick until I could reach the top of the roof of your home, dear friend
I must reach the sky so blue and so true, my friend
For my true love, the Sun, has been waiting since so long ago

Have you not a little sorrow to share with me , my friend
For without my prickles my spines life is pale and cold for me
For, I would not be able to reach out and hold the warmth of my love, the Sun
And, at night, I would be left lonely and in darkness
for, I could not reach out and be up there with my friends, the Moon and the Stars ...


Don't you know my friend, that the Sun the Moon and the Stars are siblings of the truest blood
They vowed to wait for me
to care for me
to be there standing on the alley when I reach the sky to be with my beloved Sun

My friend
My prickles my spine are my needs to bring me up there to be with my love
You must help me dear friend
Help me climb your roof so I could be with my love
so that this sadness;
this despair;
this loneliness;
this hope;
this glory of emotions; can be told to my love

Will you give me your words;
lend me your strength;
show me your smile;
and lift me to the sky, my friend

For as beautiful I am to the eyes of the audience
I live a life of alone-ness
Though, so strong and fierce I may look
I am a fragile and tender at heart
For so sweet my fragrance from afar to you
I keep the best of me within my soul and being , waiting
waiting for the day when this exquisite parfum will engulf my love and me in the most tremendous moment of our life ...

Can you now understand me, my friend
Can you now keep this secret I share with you
Can you now forever be my truest friend
Can you smile for me all through the days and weeks and months
And not to shed a tear when I reach the day of union with my love

You promise me these, my friend ...
I will be your true friend for life.

Avec My Love ...

Lonely standing still yonder in the moor
High up there alone in the middle of the moor
Looking up in the grey sky
The sun is hiding today high up in the middle of the moor
why... even the creak in the middle of the moor runs lazily
today
Pondering , maybe
Daydreaming, should be
Longing, must be
Still standing there within the blanket bog mires
... within the cotton grasses and the thorn scrubs
Only these
No one else
Not even a ram or an ewe in sight
Can you smell the air
So crisp clears the mind
the soul
fresh air in my face
Am I
wishing and wishful
but
at peace
Ahh...the Cloud is heavily set today; the Sun is out of sight
grey is the colour ...
lovely it is
this moor
though its grey
because in the mist yonder; I can see the silhouette of my love
He is here.

The Ustaz, The Moody or The Old n Wise

A friend of mine has been consulting me for months now regarding her options in her love life - a platonic love life that is.  She is in a constant turmoil on her love-friendly relationships with her two maybe three prospective candidates.  We are at the stage of making a u-turn on the whole affairs.  Meaning, she and I are planning her wedding reception first rather than giving our focus to the ways on how to catch the right guy.  The first priority seems to be the songs to be sang at her wedding reception.  There are six songs, I have been chosen to sing four out of that six songs.  And the best and thrilling part is, I  must sing all those four songs with a partner who happen to be my Facebook buddy.  Well, he has no choice but to go along with such request.  No option was offered to him. My dear buddy is like a sitting duck, being there accepting my request without even uttering a single word.  Such a nice and well behaved boy-friend...  Laugh out loud people. 

Of course my dear friend has also planned on the ambience and the colour theme of her wedding reception and the venue plus the menu even the exact time when I should sing and when I should be having my nasi beriani and my sirap bandung.  Oh! and she also planned that a very very nice and comfy tent must be erected complete with a sofa and a coffee table where she will be positioned with her beau sitting there watching me singing with my poor buddy and she will be nibling on her nice chocolate cookies and teh tarik.  Hahaha.... How nice feeling, I can visualise how harmony and tranquil her wedding will be. Sigh.... bring in tears of happiness to me.  Have I described everything here?  One more thing, most important, that is the kompang.  The kompang must play two songs to follow my dear friend from the beginning of her parade till she reaches the main tent with that nice fluffy comfy sofa.  The parade will be at the minimum of ten minutes journey.  A must this event people.  The wedding is not complete and perfect without this traditional most significant musical instrument at play and display.  Sigh, again.  Simply going to be a wonderful wedding of the year, people.  Absolutely well planned.

So, all things are planned as what it should be and must be finalised in two years time.  Mobilisation has started since several weeks ago.  Now, she and I are about to embark on the serious business.  That is, getting and choosing the right candidate.  There happen to be three potential candidates at the moment.  However, the building of the relationships from mere friend to a lover status has been quite a challenge.  Well, it looks like I must continue this part in my next post people.  Gathering of more substantive information is crucial at the moment as I must give my dearest friend a solid end result.  So, stay tuned people.  Don't stray too far away.

Heaven Knows

When you are feeling like there is no one standing on your side, when you are feeling there is no hope for you, when you are lost all alone in this cold and cruel world, there will be someone who suddenly appears before you just as if godsend to you.   Something like a preordained crossing of paths and there is the person, your saviour, your hope and perhaps, your dream comes true somebody. 

This phenomena can happen to anybody, people.  A dear friend of mine who suffers from a serious illness but recovered from it, thought that due to her illness she may not be able to find a life partner, ever.  She believed in that belief.  But, people, heaven knows better.  She met her soulmate one day.  Out from just no where, he came to her life.  She is living a happy life with her loved one.  A life that was unthinkable to her a year before.

Life is meaningful when we continue having hopes and dreams.  Such are the elements in pursue of happiness, people.  Because, what matters in the end is the sharing of life with your important someone who fills your heart, mind and soul perfectly in harmony and in full understanding of each other's needs, dos and don'ts and stay together till the end.  All other matters are just things outside your inner circle.  They are important but not as important as your own happiness. 

A relationship built on true love and wonderful friendship are built to last, people.  Lucky are those who have found this fountain of eternal love and eternal flame of love of a man and a woman.

Septembre...

Yeah, here comes September again !  How time flies.  Many events happening in September. New events to venture into; old ones for reusing, recycling and discards.  Datelines to meet.  People to meet.  Business ventures to deal.  Properties to dispose - movable and not movable alike.   Anniversaries and birthdays too.  Maybe new place of work and new acquaintances too.  New life partner as well.  New frontiers too, to travel to beyond the horizon.

Time really flies.  And here we are, lingering still waiting for the season to change hoping quietly with the change of the season, we may be changed too.  Perfectly in tuned with the season.  Whatever and wherever you are people, stick to what you belong to.  Don't let go when time is good times.

The Invasion of ET -- The End

People..., 

If you can recall my first posting on the ET article, I have come to the conclusion of my resolution that I made that fateful early morning.   Finally!  At last!  What a relief to be able to throw away all the burden on your shoulder that have been there for how long you could not remember anymore.  The road to this final destination has been a long one people.  You cannot imagine how much energy time and materials were consumed to get to this end.  Focus is the element to help you in getting to your target point.  Apart from your own best behavior and good judgment.  Patience and  all the help that you can get from your closed friends and family members are another factor in you having a success in eliminating the relevant ET.  Eliminate! Stop cruelty to humanity and love!

The gist is to leave behind all bad auras that surround you.  You must open up your own positive and bright aura to enable you to move on ahead to the new you and the new world.
Be brave people.  The world is too beautiful to be left unexplored. 

You may want to go to Timbuktu and enjoy the beautiful scenery under the scorching sun.  You might find treasures there.  If it is destined to be people, it will be. 

The Golden Trophy

I am feeling the blues today folks.  I just couldn't put my finger at what is it that I am looking for and why I am looking for it.  I am playing the mental game today.  To please myself perhaps.  Or, to hide away from the reality of the harsh and cruel world around me.  Wishing that the sunshine will blind my eyesight so that I don't have to see the view that I hate to see. The thing is, I am always wishing and wishing and hoping and hoping for the one matter that I have been dreaming of, all of my life. Yup, can see it now.  There it is, the golden trophy of my heart.

What exactly is that? The Golden Trophy?  That will be the love of your life, your soul mate, the one that you have been looking for to walk with you in the fields of gold.  Yes folks, LOVE again.  Come on people, essentially Love is what made this world goes around.  You simply cannot deny the gravity of importance that word Love brings.  Its everywhere in life.  Particularly, a paramount element in your marriage life.   

Question again?  What if your spouse is not your soul mate?  Just another he and she, you know the ordinary kind of relationship.  Good if you can define the type of relationship that you are in right now.  It will help you in focusing on the next step to do i.e. how to make your life with your spouse more meaningful and contain more love.  The answer is, work on it people.  Work to make your marriage life a better living space and time for both of you.  Do not stop working.  Continue working on it while both of you are at it.  If however, only one party is working towards making the marriage a blissfully happy and loving kind of world, time to think again has come.  Do your bits.  Make it work again.  And, if you are tired of working all alone, find a way out.

As for me, it seems like I have found my golden trophy.  The journey has begun for me to take it and hold it in my arms as tightly as I can.  I'm out of the blue now.

Happy Golden Day people.