Tuesday, October 19, 2010

The Ustaz, The Moody or The Old n Wise

A friend of mine has been consulting me for months now regarding her options in her love life - a platonic love life that is.  She is in a constant turmoil on her love-friendly relationships with her two maybe three prospective candidates.  We are at the stage of making a u-turn on the whole affairs.  Meaning, she and I are planning her wedding reception first rather than giving our focus to the ways on how to catch the right guy.  The first priority seems to be the songs to be sang at her wedding reception.  There are six songs, I have been chosen to sing four out of that six songs.  And the best and thrilling part is, I  must sing all those four songs with a partner who happen to be my Facebook buddy.  Well, he has no choice but to go along with such request.  No option was offered to him. My dear buddy is like a sitting duck, being there accepting my request without even uttering a single word.  Such a nice and well behaved boy-friend...  Laugh out loud people. 

Of course my dear friend has also planned on the ambience and the colour theme of her wedding reception and the venue plus the menu even the exact time when I should sing and when I should be having my nasi beriani and my sirap bandung.  Oh! and she also planned that a very very nice and comfy tent must be erected complete with a sofa and a coffee table where she will be positioned with her beau sitting there watching me singing with my poor buddy and she will be nibling on her nice chocolate cookies and teh tarik.  Hahaha.... How nice feeling, I can visualise how harmony and tranquil her wedding will be. Sigh.... bring in tears of happiness to me.  Have I described everything here?  One more thing, most important, that is the kompang.  The kompang must play two songs to follow my dear friend from the beginning of her parade till she reaches the main tent with that nice fluffy comfy sofa.  The parade will be at the minimum of ten minutes journey.  A must this event people.  The wedding is not complete and perfect without this traditional most significant musical instrument at play and display.  Sigh, again.  Simply going to be a wonderful wedding of the year, people.  Absolutely well planned.

So, all things are planned as what it should be and must be finalised in two years time.  Mobilisation has started since several weeks ago.  Now, she and I are about to embark on the serious business.  That is, getting and choosing the right candidate.  There happen to be three potential candidates at the moment.  However, the building of the relationships from mere friend to a lover status has been quite a challenge.  Well, it looks like I must continue this part in my next post people.  Gathering of more substantive information is crucial at the moment as I must give my dearest friend a solid end result.  So, stay tuned people.  Don't stray too far away.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

Someone dedicated me a sad love song sung by Patti Smyth and Don Henley - Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough - it gave me many different volumes of emotions.  Mostly sadness that I felt.  And, I wondered why he gave me that song.  I have been listening to it for many days now.  Trying my best to understand the  underlying meaning of the lyrics and how it relates to me and my being in  a sentimental relationship with him.  It was not an easy discovery for me.  Because, I am not sure of his feelings toward me.  I tried to figure out the true meaning and I even search the nets to get some professional help...sigh.

I found that the most logical and realistic meaning would be that "sometimes love isn't enough"  mirror the relationship of two people where there have to be more than love for it to work out. I would say trust is equally or even more vital than love. There are other little things that a relationship need to make things work between them. All those little little things which do not cost you gold or diamonds.
Perhaps to some, having common interests and living individual lives could bring more happiness, or the timing and circumstances of a situation would bring happiness that can overcome love.   I pondered upon the lyrics for hours, while listening to the song.  It gave me such forlorn-ness.  The lyrics, as you can see below:

Now, I don't want to lose you,
but I don't want to use you,
just to have somebody by my side.

And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you,
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.

Yes, I may have hurt you,
but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking somethings gonna change.
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough. Oh, Oh, Oh, No

are full of words of sadness about the feelings of two persons in love, perhaps, but something is not right between them of which we are not told about.  But, to apply these lyrics to my situation, whom I suspect that he is someone who has some sort of affection towards me but is yet to express it loudly.  Perhaps the feelings are mutual but one can never tell.  So much in certain measures of feelings but so unsure of the gravity of it to tell the whole wide world about it.  I am thinking that distance is a major factor contributing to this difficult connection.  I firmly believe that this is not a puppy love situation.

Why must I pay attention to this dedication of just a song, right?  That's the point, why must a man simply send just a song to a woman?  There is always a reason for anything that happens in this world.   There is always reason why we do some things or say something.  Either directly or through a medium.  A song is a medium for us to express our feelings and thoughts to the people out there.  We express our being and our feelings and what we have in our mind popularly through songs in this highly technological era.  

But, my guessing on the meaning of this song may not be correct in a sense that he may be telling me to let go and move on with my life.   Confusion in love is the easiest thing to happen.  But words alone to help ease the confusion may not work well when one deals with love.  It has got to be more than words.  That is why, there are many love songs that talk about more than words.  You just can hear about more than words everywhere all over the world.  In your world, in my world.

I still wonder, what and why he sent me the song.  What is the message he is trying to tell.  Whatever it is, I am already overwhelmed by sadness just by listening to the song.