How I Love Thee

Love thee,
     like the wisteria in love with the bees
     like the rose alone in the green field
     like the pink asters in the morning sun in spring
     like arum  wavering in the windy afternoon
     like begonia lonely in the moonlit night
     like carnation near that creak ... waiting in silence
    

Love thee; i have become
     the balsam
     the gardenia
     the geranium
     the heliotrope
     the hibiscus

Love thee i do
love thee is Globe Amaranth

love thee i have no king's spear; no laburnum; no manchineel

love thee i wouldn't want it a mimosa

love thee is laurel, is magnolia, is Orange Blossoms...



i am now the Peach Blossoms
forever at the mercy of thou gerbera.

    

Labyrinth

Clashes of the spouses at the height of a crisis can be a daunting experience to some.  There will be many aspects of one's life that will become major concerns to both spouses but , one of them may look at their many issues in marriage from different viewpoint altogether collided against each other's views that could rise to negating effect ultimately.  How can it be not possible for any one of them to easily misunderstood the feelings, inner feelings, inner emotional flows of the other against another, the misconstrued perspective upon the conducts of the other when all in all it will come back to the pertinent issue of the attitude and the degree of intellectual plus emotional quality and quantity of the couple.  Whats with all these uncertainties of behaviour and conducts, instability of emotional well being and whats with all these emotional guarantee and warranty?  Whats its all about?  Why is the human relationship become so difficult a subject to fathom and to digest?  Why is it so unreachable to get to that harmony of relationship?

I have been doing readings of the body and words and conduct of  persons in my life for all my life, folks.  Still, I learn.  Learning and learning.  Going round and round the fields, the lakes, the roads, the hills, the rivers, the forest....... forever and ever.  When one reached the city border, one decided to get excited for one was thinking one has reached the civilisation.  Alas! one was dragged back to the darkness of learning, yet again.  Even, when one has declared one's truthful inner desires and soulful searches of one's dreams, one is still being dragged to the bottom of the pond. 

It is because, whats in one's heart is not one is in possession of.  All due to one's divine devotion to one's worldly holdings obtained through divine oath.  Not that that divine oath one cannot elude from, its just that one is still entrapped by that divine oath that one is not being capable of disengaging oneself at least not in the near foresight.  Its like torn between two worlds.  One is torn between the holdings and the desire to be free like birds in the sky.  Life is simple.  But the construction of it is complex.  What is left but time.

Though, one is in near death to be within the vicinity of one's Taj Mahal ....

The Phenomena

What is the current phenomena in the postmodern family structure/family ties that has become almost like a public awareness in experience albeit an open secret one in Malaysia?   Has anyone noticed anything peculiar in the way couples and spouses re-align their relationship to conform with the unstoppable demands of the highly commercialized and ultra secular society becoming fast in this society in particular the Malays?  Perplex?  Bewildered?  You should be.  My focus right now is in the development of the Malays in their interaction within their family unit with their spouses while working to make their relationship works although it is no longer workable and in doing so, stretching the relationship, its way of interaction and communication line to the optimum wherein in it lies the underlying turmoil and stormy feelings which will sooner or later, find its way to the exit door from the steady increasing temperature!  Yes people, it is a phenomena indeed.  This new way of stabilizing the spousal relationships among the Malays.  It comes to my knowledge that a number of good old friends and friends of friends are practicing this new way of  this phenomena I named "marītālis stabilizer'.  How did they do it.?  Apparently, by default, spouse who are facing some sort of inadequacy in their marital relationship found his/her way to the exit door with no actual intention whatsoever (at least in the beginning) ties a knot of mutual relationship albeit a platonic one, with another person (man/woman) outside their marriage and this new found person is regarded as a special someone who is more than a friend category and this couple just continue with their specially defined relationship just like any other couple in love but at the same time, continuing living their marriage live with their spouse like any normal couple would do; in every sense of the word marriage.  What part of it so phenomenal?  The participants i.e. the couple are both from a troubled marriage; both are married with grown kids; both have stable career some with high important positions;   both just accept the fact that both of them are tied to another person but they continue to be happily doing all sorts of friendships thing together like having fun time together and with friends having similar situation, they go out together, go to movies, plan for holidays, they celebrate birthdays and anniversary of their relationship, they kiss farewell every time they part, and since that they are Malays, the female will kiss the hand of the male partner.  Yes, I used the word 'partner'; since that they are considered partner in crime as the situation suggests.  They are closed couple but they do not step out beyond the normal friends' activities that is NO sex.  And, because of that situation and position, I cannot labelled this kind of relationship as a marital affairs relationship.  I came to know of this situation , I mean, fully aware of the situation just quite recently.  According to the practitioners of this lifestyle, they are leading a happy life.  In a way, it helps in building back their almost broken marriage.  They regain some element of liberation in their inner self, at least for the time being, they confessed. 

What are we to make of this new development in human relationship?  Is it new , really?  What say you people?

Relationships of the Soulmates

So, someone asked me what kind of adult relationship I am leading.  What kind of a question is that? My response: a relationship where a high level of verbal communication and exchange between me and my soul mate that meaningfully provides a sense of emotional security between my soul mate and myself. Together, we tend to keep in close touch and enjoy a shared glibness of tongue when conversing - now, that is what real non-fictitious non-pretentious affectation all about.  Can any of you do that or done that?  Oh come on, get real people.  There is no use standing like the man on top of the hill with his head in the clouds.  You got to get on the ground, at the zero point of your relationship with your soul mate.  Then came this question: where in the world can you find such a soul mate who respond openly to your foolishness silly-ness and eccentricities to the core?!  What?  You haven't met him yet? Or her yet?  Your soul mate.  I found mine, man!  With the grace of God, found, discovered and fell head over heel for him!  And you may want to query, how can one fall head over heel in love that instantly? No, my own head over heel in love happened over a period of twelve moons people.  Twelve long moons of love-hate-love discovery, rediscovery , building and re-building of emotions and the self.  It is almost like the beauty and the beast kind of relationship; utterly beyond comprehension.

Whats Up?!

Well, the end is getting nearer.  In few days we will leave behind 2010.  The dawning of 2011 is almost at the horizon.  So, its almost like a cliche but, people will still ask this question - whats your new year resolution? Each coming new year there will be confessions made by the people who are in the aware of the going on in this world, so as to tell the world and to convince  their senses that the awareness of one's social obligation like declaring one's self resolution is a must that one must without fail do and redo each year.  Come to think of it, how many new year resolutions have you made? As many as your birthday party?


I am thinking loudly now- the new year resolution is the only, repeat, the only politically correct thing to do e-ve-ry year.  Don't you think?