Detachment

"A precious one

The face I see every day every night

The thoughts of mine are with the precious one

I will keep thou, the precious one

In my secret box

The secret box I placed in a secret part

Of my heart

I locked the secret box

And threw the key away

That's how much I love thee, love of my life

Forever in my heart."

The Crying Rock

That rock
sitting near the hills
hugging the betel-nut trees and the ferns
smiling as the sun's ray showers over him

That hills
looking down the valley
waterfalls running smoothly into the rock pool
the water ripples and sways with the wind


That rock
beside him the spring water appears
spring water and rock
become friends
best friends
wonderful friends
learned to love
side by side
every day
every night
every moon
every sun
every rain

Then
one day
the rock wonders
why suddenly the  spring water no more there
disappears

so dry

so quiet

no more songs of water flowing

no more life..

Is it summer?
a drought comes a visiting?
but isn't it winter still?
even if it is summer time, spring water never leave..
why you leave me..
what did i do wrong?
did i say something wrong?
where have yesterdays gone..


That rock
weeps
cries
asking
wanting


Still the spring water keeps her silent
disappear
without leaving foot prints.

My Constellations

"You  are the brightest of stars, you are the highest of all...You came into my life, like the eagle's soaring from the wide open sky."

There will be a time when you will be sitting alone in your garden sipping ice coffee and smelling the hot air in the late afternoon looking around you admiring the leaves moving with the wind and there under the jasmine pot your small kittens nursing with their mommy then you look upon the blue sky beyond and you said to yourself, "God I am not lonely anymore.  I found the apex of love with your Grace o God and I am grateful for these pleasures You granted me."  And you realized that this new found inner revelation,  these feelings become possible to exist all because you have found the love of your life one that you have been looking and waiting for all your life and you know that he knows that you love him and he knows that you know that he loves you. With this solid feeling inside you, you know that you can face the world with all its madness and ridiculousness.  You can handle all those stupidity human kind can put forth.  You will stand tall against all oddity and impossibility that the common beings not able to face.  You will see the beauty in all facets of creations and forms.  You can stop and ponder amidst the commotion at the public place.  You may even lose some of the wrinkles on your face.  Your eyes shine and twinkles.  Your cheeks become rosy and your walks become livelier. How fulfilling is your life when such is your achievement.  Even when the subject of your heart is never nearby.  Blessed is the one who have reached the constellation.  The apex of love. 

Life is all about having to live it to the best of your ability with the help of peace in mind and soul which can be derived from having a balance lifestyle of the inner self , the physical outer beings with anyone third party who can be people outside your loop.  How big is your loop is up to you to make the choice.  To have a successful relationship is to have first and foremost a peace of mind. The very nature of a human being is to love, be loved and stay in love.  This is the basic requirement.  It is the nucleus.  All other matters in a relationship circles around the feelings and realization of knowing love, expressing it and living with it.  It gives the peace of mind.  A peaceful mind is nutrient to a healthy body and emotion. It brings dynamic to the self. Love is the essence in life but to found the apex of love is the greatest success ever.  As Rumi has expressed in his beautiful poem,  This is Love.


This is love: to fly toward a secret sky, 
to cause a hundred veils to fall each moment.
First, to let go of live.
In the end, to take a step without feet;
to regard this world as invisible,
and to disregard what appears to be the self.

Heart, I said, what a gift it has been
to enter this circle of lovers,
to see beyond seeing itself,
to reach and feel within the breast.


There it goes, people.  Reach for the constellation.  Create and build your circle of love. Construct until it becomes.

Words & Love.

"the time for putting the alphabets on the surface of the blank slab and the utterance of more words  for others to hear and understand has long past..
to find meaning in what one is doing is forever ongoing; the demands for more words of meaning are deafening at times."

I am uttering the feelings of being at lost with words when all that's needed to be said have all been said.  All the time that have been spent in the cave of 'getting-to-know-thee' 'knowing me-knowing you' have taken all the energy of one who has made it an objective as his or her effort to know 'love'.

In other words, I am saying that one will be at a lost of purpose if one continues to have a relationship purely and solely based on words spoken through machine transmission per se can be the most taxing process if such process runs for months and months without any certainty of ever meeting the subject of one's attention eye to eye!  It is a true test of perseverance and loyalty indeed.  Have any of you people expedience such a relationship?  Rarely, no?

Building is indeed an uphill task for many.  Identifying the type of building to build, the design, the landscape and the  materials to use are all mind boggling exercise.  But how can we avoid such complex process of the human uttermost important part of his her life? Avoid it as much as you want to but you can never be able to run away from it.  As, the essence of life is LOVE. No one can run away from love. Have you ever tried people?  Tell me if any of you have indeed done it.

Destiny and Time...

I'm sharing with you people a love song, a sad love song about love not to become..

" Tidak ku tahu mengapakah sepinya melanda hatiku... dan bukannya kemahuanku, datangnya sendiri...Tidak kutahu mengapakah pilunya dipinggir hatiku, dan kucuba untuk mengusir tapi tak berdaya.


Lalu terbuka gerbang hatiku, menyambut rindu datang bertamu, aku gelisah.... kini rinduku menyebut cinta yang ditakdirkan dengan mu sayang..bukan pintaku atau mahumu....semuanya suratannya... tapi mengapakah kau sekadar waktu cinta yang datang cepat berlalu...pergimu sayang bersama cinta... tercalar pedih didalam dada...aku tersiksa.


Aku terdiam kaku menahan..bisanya menikam kalbuku separuh nyawa kupandang wajah didepan kaca...tutup kembali gerbang hatiku tidak bermaya langkah kaki ku disaat ini...


..tidak kusangka jadi begini terpisah jua kita akhirnya...aku sendiri tidak mengerti tidak mengerti ..sungguh pilu dihatiku untuk melepaskan mu demi kerana ku masih sayang sayang pada mu terbangkit resah didalam kalbu ... terhimpun rindu sayang tidak ku sangka terpisah jua kita berdua... aku sendiri tidak mengerti luka cinta ku..... "

It's a mystery indeed...to love so deep...not to become...tragic.

I'll post the link some day....